Shortly after my brother, G. Wesley Brown, was killed by a stray bullet last summer, I bought a book called "The Truth About Grief." It was not at all what I was expecting, and not at all helpful. Mostly it was an attack on what the author calls "the grief industry." She claimed that most people get over it in about six months, with or without help.
After about three months I realized I did need help, and found a counselor. She's been very helpful, and the worst symptoms of the shock, trauma and grief are past. But I woke up January 15, 2013 -- six months plus one day -- and thought, "I'm still not over it."
I hadn't even realized that I had developed this expectation based on what I read in the the book. And on that day I decided to plan a trip to Canyon Ranch Lenox to see how they can help with the healing.
One thing I'd like to do is to get moving again. I just started going to local yoga classes, and I'd like to build on that beginning. I'd like to be cared for and nurtured with spa treatments. And I'd like to create a safe place to start writing some of my memories about my brother -- something I've wanted to do but haven't had the heart to begin.
Whenever I've gone to Canyon Ranch before, I've been excited, on an adventure, and an information junkie, who goes to as many lectures as possible. But this time I envision something quieter, more peaceful, perhaps a more interior journey. I'm going to start it with a couple of days at Cranwell, a resort spa in Lenox that is currently offering a "Serenity Sundays Internet Special" of $159 per room and 20% off spa treatments.
I see it as the perfect launching point for my three-night stay at Canyon Ranch Lenox. I'll have a travel day and some time to unwind at Cranwell, then I'll be able to move over to Canyon Ranch early in the morning to make the most of my first day there. It's been a while since I've visited these properties, and I'm looking forward to seeing what's new.
It's good to be looking forward to something.
Photo by Anitra Brown